2008
WARNING: This post is very long and may cause brain damage if you read it. There is nothing in stopping you to read on, but read at your own risk. If you feel like not reading this post after a sight at the warning and length of the post, please do so as I would do the same thing.
I think that this is the year that I hate the most. I'm only half-way through this year and I am thinking of declaring that this is the worst year as there are too many mishaps happening.
Is this a test from 'the guy above' to me to see how I handle all of this situations?!?!.....Well all I can say is that he's winning and I think that I want to throw in the towel as running away looks like the best solution. There are just too many problems that just keep on coming. It's like your in this boat, then water starts to pour leek in at a fast rate. You solve the problem by poking a finger in that whole and the water stops leeking in. Problem solved?...guess again another hole appeared and you poke another finger in it. I think you guess it...more wholes appear and your running out of fingers and toes.....JUST HOW MANY HOLES DOES A GUY HAS TO POKE?!?!?!
Well lets see....I think the worst problem would be that there are just too many deaths that are happening. All from good friends and I have no clue how to react to this. They have my sympathy but I wish to help them more, but the problem is I cant do anything much. They become emo and I trying all stupid things to cheer them up but all goes down the drain as it either it makes them more sad or it reminds them of something that makes them more sad. If I dont do anything, I will look like a damn idiot just standing there thinking what I can do not realising that in the view of others im just stoning there at a person that is emotional infront of me or sobbing infront of me.
I think that i'm making all the wrong decisions as I think that I am getting my busy schedule taking all of my time and thus ignoring my friends. I have not message my friends nor gone online for a long time and chat to them. I feel like I'm a bad friend. To those that have read this post this far....I AM SORRY. No matter who you are. I apologise....this apology is....for ignoring my friends, for making the wrong decisions, for not going online, for not text-messaging my friends and espacially sorry for making you read this long post....
